I’m on a roll.

What did I ever do to deserve this monolithic torrent of shit? Piece by piece, every aspect imaginable in my life has dealt me nothing but negativity and fallen apart. My academic standing, financial status, love life, and family are degrading into predicaments that make me feel like eating hand fulls of sand. I have had miserable luck in the friend department, and even work is beginning to blow. My vocation, which I could at a point not long ago almost admit to enjoying has dealt me nothing but six am shifts for the next couple of weeks. Today, my external hard drive ceased functioning. Roughly fifty gbs of music and all of my pictures are gone. If I can not retrieve the data, I am taking the event as a sign that I am not supposed to live anymore. Each and every time I get into my car, I buckle my seat belt assuming I will total the vehicle and die. Today, after playing hours of Killer Instinct on the SNES with my younger brother, I discovered that I am missing at least several of my games. I couldn’t remember any of Spinal’s combos and lost miserably, over and over again. My ego shrank, dramatically. Sigh, no mercy.

~ by j9valjean on May 25, 2008.